I'm a disappointment.

This diet isn't working. I almost always go over the calorie count. I'm becoming very discouraged, and I feel fatter than ever....

Thanksgiving Update

Day 2: 800 Calories -- Fail again. I ate 984.


Day 3: 600 Calories -- FINALLY made my goal for the day! And it was only 600 calories. I can totally do this!

So, today is Thanksgiving Day. For those of you who don't know, its a US holiday to celebrate being thankful for all that you have. And basically, it's an excuse to get out of school and stuff your face. Thanksgiving is literally the day when every person in the US can eat anything and everything without stopping. It's got to be the most unhealthy day of the year. My family gets really into it. We make a 25 pound turkey and more food than our kitchen can even hold! We have leftovers for weeks after Thanksgiving!

I'm going to try really hard not to exceed my 700 calories for the day. But I just feel like I'm already doomed to fail... I might as well start the workouts now. I'm going to need them...

Day 1 Fail.

Day 1: 800 calories

I don't know what's wrong with me. 800 calories is plenty of food! Why couldn't I keep it under?? It was only the first day and I totally blew it. I ate exactly 1000 calories. My grandma made this really nice dinner last night for my family. And there were these biscuits that I ate like 3 of. Turns out they're 170 calories EACH!! Ugh, I am now staying away from bread. Way too high calorie and carb content! Only whole grain for me from now on!

So, I've decided at the beginning of each new entry I'll post the previous day's diet goal. If it's in red, that means I went over. If it's in blue, that means I met my goal. And if it's in purple, that means I ate under my calorie goal for the day. Praying for a lot of purple!! Day 2 is looking better. I've eaten 290 calories so far. I'm going to the movies later with the boyfriend, but I'm avoiding popcorn and soda at all costs!!

- Ky

ABC Diet -- Day 1

Alright, guys. What better way to kick off a brand new blog than with a brand new diet plan! I've been looking online at different diets, and I think I've decided on going with the ABC diet plan. (ABC stands for Ana Boot Camp. Lol, so it's perfect!)

It's a 50 day diet plan that tells you how many calories you can eat each day. I think I'm up for the challenge. Here's the diet:

Day 1: 800 calories (or less)

Day 2: 800 calories (or less)

Day 3: 600 calories

Day 4: 700 calories

Day 5: 400 calories

Day 6: 500 calories

Day 7: 600 calories

Day 8: 700 calories

Day 9: 800 calories

Day 10: 300 calories

Day 11: 450 calories

Day 12: 500 calories

Day 13: 700 calories

Day 14: 650 calories

Day 15: 550 calories

Day 16: 500 calories

Day 17: 300 calories

Day 18: 500 calories

Day 19: 400 calories

Day 20: 300 calories

Day 21: 600 calories

Day 22: 550 calories

Day 23: 500 calories

Day 24: 450 calories

Day 25: 400 calories

Day 26: 350 calories

Day 27: 400 calories

Day 28: 500 calories

Day 29: 500 calories

Day 30: 600 calories

Day 31: 1100 calories

Day 32: 300 calories

Day 33: 550 calories

Day 34: 650 calories

Day 35: 750 calories

Day 36: 300 calories

Day 37: 800 calories

Day 38: 750 calories

Day 39: 700 calories

Day 40: 650 calories

Day 41: 600 calories

Day 42: 550 calories

Day 43: 500 calories

Day 44: 500 calories

Day 45: 550 calories

Day 46: 500 calories

Day 47: 600 calories

Day 48: 500 calories

Day 49: 450 calories

Day 50: 300 calories 

I know its not super restrictive...But basically there are two versions of this diet. A semi-strict one (the one I'm doing) and a very strict one that involves fasting and never going over 500 calories. I wanted to start off on the easier one first so that I can ease myself back into Ana slowly, instead of just all at once and failing. My will power sucks, I know. But so far, Day 1 is looking pretty good! The goal is 800 cals or less. And I've eaten a total 0f 260 so far! It's only 7PM, but I definitely think I can keep it under 800 for the day! Wish me luck.

Let's Get To Know Each Other, Shall We?

The purpose of this blog is to share with you the story I call my life. Mainly dealing with my food issues... but I'll also talk about other aspects of my life, too. Family drama, boy problems, asking for and giving advice...everything.

A few things about me?

- I wanted to start this blog in hopes of getting my story out there, and reaching other Pro-Anas. I love the Pro-Ana online community. We really are a family, aren't we? 

- I'm 17 years old. I've struggled with food for most of my life. When I was younger, I was always "the fat friend". All of my friends were sticks. It sucked. I ballooned to my high weight of 139 when I was 15. That's when things got really bad. I knew I had to change. I got really depressed and hated everything about myself. But then a miracle happened. I became really sick. I developed stomach ulcers. Which basically means that there is a hole in the lining of your stomach and whenever you eat, the stomach acid digesting your food spills out of the hole and you experience excruciating stomach pains. So, after months of barely eating, I lost a lot of weight. (Which I've managed to maintain since then) Now, here I am. 17 and 114 lbs. A lot better than where I was 2 years ago, but I know I still have a long way to go!! I've been majorly slacking lately, and I'm really looking forward to reuniting with my long time friend, Ana. I can feel her luring me back in with her seductive, evil words. But we all love her, don't we? She's what keeps us going.

xoxo